Story Behind The Song
This is my song of triumph over alcohol. My anthem. The writing of the song spanned my entire fight with alcoholism. Not that the song is so intricate or complex that it took a long period to write, but rather one of those songs that a few lines were jotted down and forgotten about until a later date.
The first lines of the song were written in my early 20's inspired by a segment on a news journal about drug addiction. Little did I know that I was about to start my own journey into addiction, except with alcohol instead of drugs. The chorus and music was written during one of my periods of sobriety. By my late 20's I had the song finished (minus the solo which was written recently). A friend had suggested that I wait to record the song until I could honestly say I was "free" of alcohol. I agreed, though I didn't think it would take another 20 years for that to be true.
The song is written sounding like a break up song, and if I didn't explain it further, that would be the perception. I was once asked why I didn't put some lines in the song that would make the meaning more obvious, to which my reply is that alcoholism/drug addiction is a love affair. The most one sided, selfish, possessive relationship anyone could ever have, but a love affair none the less. Those who have been through the struggle will understand the association, those who haven't can still relate to the relationship aspect.
I hope to give those who are still struggling inspiration to keep fighting. As of this writing I am 7 years sober. If I can do it, so can you. Never give up the fight. We are in this together.
| Song Length |
3:31 |
Genre |
Rock - Alternative, Rock - Hard Rock |
| Tempo |
Medium Slow (91 - 110) |
Lead Vocal |
Female Vocal |
| Subject |
Freedom, Change |
Language |
English |
| Era |
2000 and later |
| |
Lyrics
I cry
These tears that fall remind me of your lyin'
I cry
These tears that fall they make me feel like dyin'
No way
To keep me from the pain that you've inflicted
Can't stop
Can't get on top
Can't break the spell you've got me in
So long
I believed
You were my existence
Blinding me
With temptation and persistence
You gave me visions of a love that was true
Making me believe the way to live was to have more of you
But now..
I'm Free of you!
Free of all the want and desire
Free of you!
Free of all the pain you conspire
Free of you!
Free of all the chains that bound me
No way that you can tempt me now, no way to confound me 'cause
I'm Free of you!